We are diseased ridden

And here I am. Months after my last post. Crap.

I've missed Thanksgiving AND Christmas posts. I know I'm going to regret it later on in life, but right now I'm just too tired to go that far back! 

I swear my poor little Chloe has been sick since November! Constant runny nose, fevers here and there. I keep seeing posts on facebook that say "the flu has hit!" and I'm bracing myself. The throw-ups are on their way. I can feeeel it.  My boys were never as sick as Chloe has been. I volunteer in Noah and Spencer's classrooms twice a week. Which means love bug has to go in the preschool co-op or be watched by a friend or my Mom while I help out my boys.  Not to mention I'm trying to keep my goal of working out at least three times a week.  (Which is harder then one would think with 3 kids!)  So little Chloe has been a frequent visitor to our clubs Kid's Corner.  

The consequence to this is having a sickly child. The other day she woke up with a rash around her mouth, on her bottom and hands and feet. I had an inkling to what it might be. Took her to the Doctor and sure enough, it's hand foot and mouth disease. 

Now why on earth would they call it something that sounds so horrible? Are they trying to freak a mother out? Of course when she told me that I got a little teary eyed. Then she asked me if Chloe was a daycare baby and I full on cried. I'm a stay at home mom, and my baby is getting neglected! Geesh if I am having her being watched so much by other people I might as well get paid for it!!! 

Well peeps, if you haven't noticed I've been having a full blown mommy guilt trip. I was trying so hard to be there for all my kids. Wanting to be able to go on every field trip with Noah, help out in Spencer's class and still be with Chloe every second of the day like I was with my boys. I obviously needed to learn how to let go a little. 

SOOO I've taken on a little less during the day. Cut back on playdates and just made time to play with ALL of my babies. As my children get older I realize how fast time is passing. I used to think that babies were so hard. Now I realize every stage of childhood is hard on a mother. Babies cry, poop and make mushy messes and throw your back out from carrying them everywhere. BIG babies cry, make lego messes everywhere and come with massive amounts of kindergarten homework. 

SO, I'm rolling with the punches. Chloe is having a different lifestyle than my boys had at her age because she has other siblings that need me. And that will make her grow in different ways than my boys. She will be strong and independent. My kids will grow up just fine because they will have my love, my life and my everything.  

I LOVE being a Mom!