He's growing up...

Here I sit in a quiet house, Spencer down for his morning nap and Noah off at preschool. I've already cleaned the whole house, thought about what to make Noah for lunch and paid some bills. What the heck am I supposed to do now!?! I've found myself missing my little best friend the short periods he is away. He is only at school 2 days a week for 3 hours and he's not missing me thats for sure! Nick and I have really been nervous about sending him to preschool. Anyone who knows Noah knows he is a mamma's boy! BIG TIME! We thought he would have a hard time adjusting seeing how everytime we try to drop him off in nursey at church he throws a fit! So we ussually took turns staying in there with him till he felt comfortable enough to let us go. (which never happened) Little did I know that while we are not watching our seemingly wary child is a social butterfly! He loves his new school and his teacher told me to watch him from one of the windows the other day to see how he acted when I wasn't around and I was shocked! Running around talking and laughing and singing to all the songs! Why doesn't he do that when I"m around? Our little baby is growing up so fast he is already embarrassed that his mom is there watching him. The other day I dropped him off and I left him there sitting on the floor surounded by girls in complete awe of his tall block tower. I tried to say goodbye to him and make him give me a kiss but he was having none of that! All I could get out of him was a soft "bye mom" he wouldn't even look at me!! So here I sit totally sad that my baby is growing up and not needing me so much. I found myself getting WAY to excited this morning when the garbage truck drove by... then I remembered, Noah isn't here and why the heck am I excited for the garbage truck? He is on to new and bigger things and here I am, missing my little best friend and sad that I have no one to share my excitment for the garbage truck.